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Thu Apr 10, 2008 6:59 am
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| The news about Kabir's death brought out a mixed feeling in
myself. I remembered the earlier days, when I used to fight verbally with him, testing him with small silly tests ,creating funny stories which brought little amusement. At certain point of time,I engaged in verbal war toghether with CMD, to provoke him and against his presumed aggressiveness.At that time I felt he is a person gifted with enormous intelligence and knowledge but little heart. As days passed, I started to feel his deep compassionate nature and wonderful heart inspite of his aggressive style to hit the strong belief structure and ego.Then I became a silent admirer of his presence in the forum though I have not take efforts to reach him.Only had few mail communication regarding his Non Traditional methods.I have lost the chance to talk directly with him due to my self defense IN NOPATH forum he tried to share much of his understanding with limited people but that too not much successful because of active strong self defense mechanism in the people including myself. Now I feel a sense of loss with bubbling tears of a wonderful warrior,with gratitude towards his compassion towards me when I showed aggressiveness towards him.Yet there is no much shock and there is a feeling of deep acceptance of his death.I see existence is filled with new fresh living beings radiating their beauty. But I don't feel to dance and celebrate for his death.That doesn't come spontaneously.I can't celebrate his death as a ritual. I am grateful to existence that I came across such a wonderful person like Kabir and he will always stay in my heart with nice remembrance |
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